get her the fucking flowers

It was grotesque

I held a bouquet of flowers

Like a severed head

As though it was a carcass

That I'd feast off in the winter

I knew how few and far between those things were

And so I dragged it home

You even took a picture

I held it up to show

Like I caught it on a fish hug, all your acts of love so rare to be commemorated

Like a beast I'd taken down

And I'd survive the scarcity, I would go hungry

Just to prove you care for me, to feel you love me I'd make do

I've said before I bear the cold

Better for no end

You're haunting

Whatever I call

I'll wrap it up and

Leave it at your door

Just so you could give it to me

And I thank you

Thank you so profusely

You know I make it last and

I would lick it dry

Use all of the bones and make delicate wind chimes

And I'd warm myself in winter

With the animal's raw hide

For all of my hinting

You tapped out at one time

And I'd survive the scarcity

I would go hungry

Just to prove you care for me

To feel you love me, I'd make do

I've said before, I bear the cold

Better for knowing you

I cringe at the thought now

In all of its indignity

Of needing love from you

Of what that did to me

And I'll never plead again

Just to be loved

It's not enough

It's not enough

And I survived the scarcity

And I went hungry

To prove you cared for me

To feel you love me

I made do

I've said before

I buried the cold

To bed for knowing you

Thank you.